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I'm seeing memories of tuesday,
Although of one that's yet to come.
I'm seeing glimpses of that one day,
That is kind of just a bum.

From deep within you comes,
The need that has been flushed.
Flushed not because it's not fulfilled
But because the need to not fulfill it,
Is a need that is ignored.

I'll wait for you forever
Because you give me meaning.
I'll wait for you forever,
Because it seems appealing.

Why crowd ourselves with stupid definitions?
Why believe in these superfluous religions?
Is love not for humans anymore?
Or human's love for subdivision
Will likely just complete the mission?

Love is just the essence
Of a human coalescence.
I thought exist it did not
But now I wanna tie our knot.

Let's live in this moment
Without any worry or fear.
Let's do it more frequent.
It being everything dear.

People become distant,
The feeling is persistent.
Cant relate or talk 'bout stuff,
All because deep down - you've had enough.

I'll try to write in the ways of the happy,
You know, sometimes life is just crappy.
But I know what I need to be able to do,
That thing, my love, is to be more like you.

It's getting bad again. It keeps getting bad again.
How could I do it back then?
Back when my tears were from joy
And my happiness was from a toy...

In over a month I haven't touched poetry.
It's like my goal is at the top of the tree
But all I do is sit beneath it like a wilting flower.
Waiting until somebody builds me a tower.

Thoughts, can they leave me?
Dreams, can they stay?
The wet concrete is touching my knee,
By the texture alone I am swept away.

Normality you fucking bastard,
You cruel and subdividing bitch.
My life before was filled with custard,
Now I can't even scratch my social itch...

A perfect human being I am not
But neither are you or anyone else...
It's not hard for me to tie a knot
Or ring the celebration bells.

Can you make today just go away?
Can you turn my frown into a smile?
I wish in me you would just sleigh,
All my feelings for a while...

The test of a friend is a test of great meaning.
How roughly or kindly we treat any being
Determines the worth of the friendship you're seeing.

There's nothing as great as a being
Whose heart only sorrow is leaving.
Though rarely does pleasure he find,
To the beauty of misery, his eyes are not blind.
And although time he has plenty to ponder,
The truth is still dark due to sonder.

Why don't I reach out?
Why the possibility of help I doubt?
Well, sadly, there's nothing you can do.
Tomorrow I'll forget this and you will too.

To work, I don't want to,
To sleep, I'm not able,
What the hell do I do,
When I don't have cable?

Today I made a wish to die.
I don't think that I can lie.
Both to myself and everyone around.
I'm down beneath the ground.

I have fewer fingers than the times I woke up last night,
Thinking, how to make wrong things right.
And no, I didn't find an answer,
Just grew my emotional cancer.

I wish I killed myself last night,
Done something to make things right.
Because now they're not,
I wish my body could just rot.

Oh, why are you an ocean, life?
Just to laugh at my own internal strife?
We know what causes every ocean's tide,
But I can't figure out, what causes mine.

You hurt me once upon a time,
But lets be real, I hurt you too.
The scars we proudly wear just shine.
Is it a dream to start anew?

A friend just told me a joke.
I smiled as if I'm mentally broke.
Didn't comprehend what he said.
Replied not to seem inbred.

Create yourself
Because you are yourself.
If you don't, you'll end up in a cult
And no one ever begs for that result.

Mari always struggled living amongst humans. They live their lives pretending like they're everything, ignoring others, and acting like gods.

There is a point of no return.
Before it, your life starts to burn
And once passed, that's it, you're done.
The mind comes gone and body numb.

Was gonna send you some shit,
But I'm not sure we have a pit.
The little core of a relationship,
Not provided by an acid trip.

When dicks are dicks and don't respond,
They say they're sleeping, go to die.
A wall of great annoyance they're beyond.
Just say when you'll be awake, don't fucking lie.

Your bed becomes the place you cry,
The place where all your bad thoughts lie.
Escape? there is none,
When life is close to being done.